More Changes, Spinning Wheels, and Goal Setting

Sometimes it seems I'm spending my retirement years just stuck, spinning my wheels, aimlessly going nowhere.  It's depressing seeing that, even in this beautiful place, I am still stuck in my habit of being a recluse, staying in the apartment, not going out except on shopping trips with Diana, or visiting the family.  I spend way too much time on Facebook, commenting on way too many groups, staying up way too late, waiting for a chat with Mark.  And if I'm not on my laptop, I'm on my Tablet, playing endless games of Words With Friends, doing self-readings with my Tarot and Oracle apps, or reading books and magazines, which, at least, is productive because I'm reading spiritual and intellectual books and magazines, and stretching my mind, reading things I never dreamed of before, like politics, economics, and various Isms.  I also watch too much Netflix.  I don't watch a lot of TV anymore, but I watch a lot of movies.  I also watch YouTube videos, but even that is part of my education, watching Progressive Talk Shows, documentaries, and Wicca teachings. 

What I really need to do is set some goals for myself, and set up some sort of routine, or schedule, so I can get things done, and stop spinning my wheels.  Speaking of which,  I am going to go shopping this week for a new set of wheels!  A new car!  Can't wait to get back on the road.  I got my eyes checked, finally, a few weeks ago, passed the test, and got my license back.  But the car is beyond driving, so I'm going to get a newer one.  That will be a good thing to do with my inheritance money. 

Major Changes And More Poetry

This is sort of an update in a nutshell.  My spiritual quest took a turn on the spiral of truth, or should I say the Wheel of the Year, and I am now neo-pagan, Eclectic Wicca.  I got involved in a Facebook group for beginners in Paganism and Wicca, took an interesting course on Wicca (Wicca: A Year And A Day), which I wasn't able to complete for various reasons.  I learned a lot, and enjoyed it.  I'm still learning and practicing on my own.  

Last year,  Spring Equinox,  Aaron left this world behind, gave up the fight with ALS, and, true to his Gemini curiosity, intellect, and scientific mind,  chose cryonics,  and had his body put on ice, hoping to be unfrozen in a future when the medical research finds a cure for that horrible disease that crippled his body, stole his breath silenced his voice, but left his mind intact. Diana and I had planned to go to see him his last weeks on earth, but a freak blizzard canceled our flights. 

I moved last fall, in September to a bigger, nicer apartment, by a lake with fountains.  And I live upstairs now.  I got the last of my inheritance, so was able to buy brand new furniture for the living room, for the first time in decades, even have a beautiful geometric swirl designed area rug.  Life is good!

My LDR with my Twin is still going strong, now into our 6th year, still in love, crazy about each other,  and Best Friends Forever.  I never imagined anything like this. 

And, in addition to my spiritual views changing,  so have my political views.  For the first time in my life,  I am involved in a campaign to get a Democratic Socialist into the White House.  I think I'm a throwback to the 60s,  more Liberal than ever.  And it feels good!